The Songs That Saved My Life

These Are My Favorite songs I have listened to From The Past year

Infection ABACABB
Darling, I Want to Destroy You-AFI
Die Romantic-Aiden
I Set My Friends on Fire-Aiden
Bridge of Reason Shore of Faith-Aiden
Window-The Album Leaf
Thule-The Album Leaf
On Your Way-The Album Leaf
Twenty Two Fourteen-The Album Leaf
The Outer Banks-The Album Leaf
Over The Pond-The Album Leaf
Another Day-The Album Leaf
Streamside-The Album Leaf
Eastern Glow-The Album Leaf
Moss Mountain Town-The Album Leaf
The Last Three Letters-Alesana
44. Caliber Love Letter-Alexisonfire
Laid to Rest-All Shall Perish
Here We Stand-Amber Pacific
Cry of the Black Birds-Amon Amarth
Legendary-And Hell Followed With
Welcome to 1984-Anti-Flag
Pac-Man [Original Edit]-Aphex Twin
Keep The Car Running-Arcade Fire
The Sadistic Motives Behind Be-Arsis
Tourtasia-Arsonists Get All The Girls
Air Force One (Instrumental)-As Blood Runs Black
Winter-(Acoustic)-Bayside
Blame It On Bad Luck-Bayside
Loveless Wrists-Bayside
Cold And Blue And Lifeless-Bayside
The Ghost of St. Valentine-Bayside
Poison in My Veins-Bayside
A Synonym for Acquiesce-Bayside
How to Fix Everything-Bayside
Scenic World-Beirut
The Belle Of The Ball-Beneath The Sky
Necropolis-The Black Dahlia Murder
Your First Crime-Blacktop Mourning
A Killer Is Born-Bleed From Within
Wasting Time-blink-182
A Letter To Elise (live - The Cure cover)-blink-182
Into The Ocean-Blue October
Mandy (Live)-Boxcar Racer
With Or Without You-Breathe Carolina
Glycreiene-Bush
You Should Be Hated Here-Carissa's Wierd
Magic-The Cars
Crawlspace-Caspian
Don't Fade Away, Don't Fall Asleep-Chase Coy
The Second That You Say-Chase Coy
I Need This More Than You Know-Chase Coy
Interlude Pt 1-Chiodos
Stupid Girl-Cold
You Were Always The One-The Cribs
Im A Realist-The Cribs
Pictures Of You-The Cure
Have Faith In Me-A Day To Remember
It Can't Rain All The Time-A Death Among Heroes
Spheres of Madness-Decapitated
Over bleknede blåner til dommedag-Dimmu Borgir
Closer-E For Explosion
Paper Flowers Never Die-E For Explosion
You Know Who You Are-E For Explosion
I Explode-E For Explosion
An Abstract Struggle-Earth From Above
have you passed through this night?-Explosions In The Sky
So Hot and You Sweat on it (Bonus Track)-Four Year Strong
Note To Self-From First To Last
Emily-From First To Last
The Chalice Of Mankind-From The Shallows
Ein Ekelhafter Leibestrieb-Fuck Your Shadow From Behind
The Judges Daughter-Green Day
Your Sweet Six Six Six-H.I.M.
Erebus-Hacksaw to The Throat
Ten Fingers Isn't Quite Enough-Halifax
Language Lessons-Hawthorne Heights
Pens and Needles-Hawthorne Heights
Miss Starving Skeleton-Here Comes The Kraken
Michigan Winters-Heyday
Bleed For You-Hidden In Plain View
Bob and Bonnie-Houston Calls
Things That Rhyme With Orange-I Set My Friends On Fire
From Roots to Needles-If These Trees Could Talk
Rest My Chemistry-Interpol
NYC-Interpol
Goodbye I'm Sorry-Jamestown Story
Dear Everybody-JamisonParker
Everyone Wants To Rule The World-JamisonParker
Paper, Rock, Scissors-JamisonParker
Slow Suicide-JamisonParker
Entombment Of A Machine-Job For A Cowboy
Strings Of Hypocrisy-Job For A Cowboy
Disorder-Joy Division
Love Will Tear Us Apart-Joy Division
Nothing Is Mysterious-Kill Hannah
Banshee-A Kings Worthy Mustache
Change The World-Kites (Russia)
Special Tone-Kites (Russia)
The Silent Life-The Knife Trade
Forever Dying-Last House On The Left
Colony Of Birchmen-Mastodon
Playing for Keeps-Matchbook Romance
Promise-Matchbook Romance
If All Else Fails-Matchbook Romance
The Greatest Fall-Matchbook Romance
Wear Wolf Fever-Math The Band
Daylight-Matt & Kim
Don't Slow Down-Matt & Kim
Ginders-Matt & Kim
The Impression That I get-Mighty Mighty Bosstones
We Are Golden-Mika
Good Guys (Don't Wear White)-Minor Threat
Forgive And Forget-Miss May I
Awakening-Molotov Solution
Amateur-Nada Surf
Fermented Offal Discharge-Necrophagist
Sometimes I Rhyme Slow-Nice & Smooth
Love at First Sight-Nickasaur!
Rocketships and Radios-Nickasaur!
Xoxo-Nickasaur!
Tongue Tied-October Fall
Favorite Mistake-October Fall
Another Girl, Another Planet-The Only Ones
Closure-Opeth
Demon of the Fall-Opeth
Your Love-The Outfield
Hot Air Balloon-Owl City
Little Secrets-Passion Pit
Moth's Wings-Passion Pit
Home-Pencey Prep
The Secret Goldifsh (Acoustic)-Pencey Prep
Yesterday-Pencey Prep
Koko Massacre-Postmortem Promises
Heart So Close-Promise of Redemption
Remember The First Day-Promise Of Redemption
Rough Road Leads To The Stars-Promise Of Redemption
It Just Takes Time-Promise Of Redemption
In Articulo Mortis-Quo Vadis
In Contempt-Quo Vadis
Its The End Of The World-R.E.M.
Restless-Racing Kites
True Love Waits-Radiohead
Lake Michigan-Rogue Wave
Venus and Bacchus-Saetia
Gloves-Salt The Wound
Wonderful World-Sam Cooke
You're Not Alone-Saosin
Closing Time-Semisonic
Steven-Senses Fail
The Ground Folds (Acoustic)-Senses Fail
Lady in A Blue Dress (Acoustic)-Senses Fail
Von-Sigur Ros
Still Dreaming-Silverstein
Smile in Your Sleep-Silverstein
My Heroine-Silverstein
Last Days of Summer-Silverstein
Waiting Four Years-Silverstein
Angel Of Death-Slayer
1979 (1995)-The Smashing Pumpkins
Sleepless Nights-Socratic
Lunch For The Sky-Socratic
Stay Where I Can See You-The Starting Line
The Collision-A Static Lullaby
Being Here-The Stills
Devotion-Struggle For Meaning
Unanswered-Suicide Silence
No Pity For A Coward-Suicide Silence
Bludgeoned To Death (Demo)-Suicide Silence
Genocide-Suicide Silence
Quiet, pull the strings!-Suis La Lune
Over My Head-The Summer Obsession
Land Of The Dead-Summoning
Where Hope and Daylight Die-Summoning
Silhouettes-Swimming With Dolphins
Poem-Taproot
Demons Ft. Three 6 Mafia-Tech N9ne
Slow Motion (1999)-Third Eye Blind
Whore To A Chainsaw-Thy Art Is Murder
Hello Love Goodbye-To Be Juliets Secret
Schism-Tool
Jerk-Off [Live]-Tool
Why Can't We Stay-Trick Seventeen
New Direction-Trick Seventeen
Empty-Handed-Trick Seventeen
Down, Set, Go-Underoath
Up All Night-Unwritten Law
Empty With You-The Used
Rise Of The Undead-Vader
Fight Fire With Fire (Metallica Cover)-Vader
Panama-Van Halen
The Last Fantasy Of Christ-Vehemence
Father Of Lies-Whitechapel
Here I Go Again-Whitesnake
Classic Struggle-Winds of Plague
Hematidrosis-With Blood Comes Cleansing
The Unnamed Melody of My Heart-13th Draft

The Good Luck Chuck Situation (Sort Of)

If you have ever seen the movie Good Luck Chuck, I seem to almost have had the same situation. Same situation but without the sex. I seem to have a problem with the ladies. The past month or so I have had this happen to me twice and if it happens again it will be three times in a row.
Okay so I have a what you call a crush on a girl, I am contemplating asking her out on a date. I asked this girl what she was doing on Saturday to maybe possibly ask her out on a date if she has no plans. She did have plans, to go on a date with a different guy. The next week she has a boyfriend so I thought, "Oh well."
Withing in the next week I start thinking,"Hey there is a much more beautiful girl in my other class that I talk to." So I was thinking about asking her out on a date. By the time I actually think it would be a good time to ask her out, she got a boyfriend.
I need to be quicker with my decisions so the next time this doesn't happen.

Gay Dogs

I was at the mall the yesterday with my friends. We went in to the worst store ever ... Petland. All the dogs are cute and I wanted to take them all home. I wanted to take them home because they are cute and also caged up. As we were looking at all these animals I noticed the dogs were in twos in these cages. You could also compare this to a prison, two dogs in each cell, a place to crap, get water, and to top it all off one of the puppies was sucking off the other one. I don't ever want to go to prison because maybe I would turn gay or I would be forced to be gay. I wouldn't have a choice because I'm not buff so I would have to be someones bitch.

Christmas list

Christmas is near and my dad asked me what I wanted for Christmas. I told him a dog, because I have always wanted a dog. The thing is he doesn't like animals. He also thinks he would be the one picking up the dog shit in the back yard. Anyway I told him to look on my Christmas list. He said that there was nothing on there I needed. Of coarse it is nothing I need. The whole reason for a Christmas list is to ask for the things you want.
What I really want is a dog for Christmas just so I won't be lonely and I would have something to cuddle with but my father doesn't understand that sort of need.
The last words I have to say are I want to go home, get a dog, and cuddle with it.

You know who you are

I feel this pain, it's the price that's paid
the only wish is you should have stayed.
We could run to the future and forget our past,
Where time moves slow and love grows fast.
I am at a loss for words to say,
your four letter pill makes pain melt away.
I am still not sure what I shall do,
because my heart is stuck on you.
The real truth is I'm broken and lonely
and all I can ask is for you to please hold me.

If These Trees Could Talk (my new favorite band)

I listen to a few instrumental artists and the latest I have been listening to is If These Trees Could Talk. The album of theirs that I can listen to over and over again is Above The Earth, Below The Sky. Once I put my headphones on I know I am going on an epic journey. I highly recommend checking this band out if you haven't heard of them already. The music they play is magical and will provoke thought. It makes me feel like there is a war going on in my mind and by the end peace is restored.

The End is Near

I call upon a devil to conjure up a curse
and maybe all this fire will cleanse this wretched earth.
If I had the choice to pro create
I would say "No!" and masturbate
because the end will not be by Gods hand.
it will be the rise and fall of the humans.
This is your worst fear-THE END IS NEAR!
You enter the church and bless yourself quick
You start praying to God or you sucking his dick?

God Within a Nuke

The bombs drop and the sky will fall
You see the light, Not heaven at all.
The smoke clears and rain comes down,
A ruler on earth without a crown?
It cleansed the earth of lies within,
It cleansed this earth of all its sin.

Jokes

My friends like to use the f word a little to much and not even in some sort of proper way. Example my friend said I don't like babysitting because I hate fucking kids, yeah I think I would hate fucking kids too first of all that's wrong and creepy but they probably don't give the best oral sex. I didn't know you had to fuck kids when you babysat.What he should have said was I fucking hate kids.

I think UPS could stand for more than one thing such as, united pimp service,ultimate pot smokers, ultimate pole smokers. You would even put ups on a beard trimmer and have it mean ultimate pube shaver. the catch phrase would be, "get a UPS beard trimmer for all your facial and pube shaving needs."

Back with a crazy dream to share

The other night I had this dream. I was about to have sex with this smoking hott girl. I hope she was hott, maybe i was drunk in the dream but I don't have the slightest clue. Alright so I am on my couch with this chick and we are making out, she pulls her tongue out of my mouth and says "hey come to your room i have a surprise for you," so i go into my room... AND THERE IS A FAT BLACK GAY DUDE IN MY ROOM. Soo I let him suck my dick. I'm not gay, he just wanted a dick in his mouth so I let him go to town. If that town was San Fransisco. It's not like I was sucking his dick, so it isn't gay. Right? Uh. I mean. I got to go.

Are we even living?

I keep thinking that life as we know it doesn't even exist. This whole world we live in is just a part of our imagination. If you are reading this ask your self am I my own imagination?
I don't know if there is a god, heaven, or hell. Maybe when you go to sleep at night and there is an awesome dream to be had, that is just a taste of what heaven is. When there is a nightmare, that is just a taste of hell.
Well I am off to bed and hopefully I get a taste of what heaven is.

2Bt00tal4School Poetry Jam Edition

Homicidal thoughts are on the rise
with a knife in my hands and these angry eyes
I'll spill your blood so these thoughts will sleep
The blades so sharp it will cut so deep
The end of your life will fall tonight
and you will soon see the fucking light.

You'll pray to your god because you believe he is there
He can't save you now because he does not care.
Your Armageddon came and you must have missed it
Because your praying to a god that never existed.

Being Told Your! Life! Means! Nothing!

The other day I was at lunch telling my friends a story that was supposed to be funny. When i told the story it didn't go as i thought it would in my mind. After I had told this story there was an awkward silence after some Laughter and this girl clearly stated "Not to be mean or anything, but is there really any point to your life." I couldn't believe those words could come out of somebodies mouth. She pretty much stated that I am a worthless piece of shit that will never amount to anything in my life. She may have said it different but that's what my ears heard. The irony of this the girl who said this is supposed to be one of the nicest people in the whole school. I guess i just bring out the worst in people.

New Sport! Street Pool

There's pool, pocket pool, and now there is street pool. Okay you have two people playing at a time and they each cover there corner pockets. The side pockets are a neutral zone. If you hit the balls in the side pockets they aren't worth any points and you cant get negative points. If you hit ball off of the table its called a fowl and the person who hit it off gets negative amount of points that the number of the ball is. If you get a ball in the opponents corner pockets that is called a touchdown and the points are decided by the number on the ball.
This is the new sport that me and my friends invented tonight.

Is somebody out there? Will somebody listen?

For the past week i have been grounded. Most parents when they ground their children they take away things like TV, computer, video games, cell phones and any kind of object that their child uses. For my parents they wont let me hang out with my friends but they let me have my computer, video games, and TV. I do have a lot of video games to play, hundreds of tv channels to watch and so many websites to surf but at the end of the day its my friends i miss most. I had been so comfortable around all my friends I soon forgot what it was really like being alone.
I cant even fathom what I want to do when i get ungrounded but that might be a while. With no social interaction outside of school this week i have been going crazy thinking about how my life was so awesome and all of that just turned around and got shit on one day.
Also within this past week I realized that there are so many things that i own that i take for granted. For example I own so many video games and I barely ever play them. I own a nice television and i rarely ever watch it. So whats the point of owning these nice things if I don't even use them.

YOU DON'T NEED MUCH IN THE WORLD BUT YOU CAN NEVER HAVE TO MANY FRIENDS.

Greatest drug of all time ( dont worry its legal)

There are so many things that are great in life. The one thing I believe that makes everyone happy its not anything physical you cant touch it but you can feel it, you can feel it somehow. What I'm talking about is love, there is nothing like it you can fill your veins full of all the drugs in the world but you cant replace that feeling you get when your in love. I don't really know how to explain it. Its probably better than sex. That feeling you get when your holding someone and your heart beats fast, time moves slow, and you just feel all your pain just melt away.
I don't care if you gay, straight, or unsure when you feel something so pure and something so innocent you know its right.

Funeralization

At my funeral is where you'll see
In the casket where I shall be.
See my body lying alone
Then your heart will turn to stone.
In your heart is where I'll stay
We'll be reunited some other day.

Senior Year (The Greatest Year or Worst)

This year is my final year of High School at Waterford Mott. I still have not decided what I can do for the rest of my life. I know I wont be a proper student for college because of my grades and poor ACT score. It seems that all the walls around me are closing in and I need to break free from this fear. The fear where life in the real world starts and the childhood dies. Everybody says you need to go to college. I feel that there is no need for me to go to college because I have spent the last thirteen years of my life being educated. I have been taught better outside of school than i would inside. My family and friends have taught me well over the years and there is never any reason to take them for granted.
For everyone else with your high grades and score take advantage of the gifts you were given. Maybe you will be the next person to do something great. As for me I hope in the next year or until the rest of my life I find meaning for being here in this world.

Girl of my dreams

I want want a girl genuine and quite like me
one that walks the same path and sees what i see
A girl that take away the sadness and pain
and when I'm not with her it drives me insane.

Something Worth Reading

Everyday I ask myself the same old questions. What is the point of living when there is nothing to live for? How can you make your life worth living?
Depending on the mood you are in these questions can make you go from happy to sad or even sad to happy.
An example would be you having a bad day and you come home wondering what the point of life is when there is nothing worth living for? After you ask yourself this question you soon start to realize all the physical objects you have such as, clothes, video games, movies, and many other countless things. When you think of all the physical objects that are in your possession you know that they won't last forever. If all of you possessions were ruined in a fire there would still be your life, love, memories, family,and friends. Those five things are what can and will last forever.

Crush Turns to Crushed

When crush turns to love
and love turns to crushed
everyone can see your
bleeding heart gush.

I thought you were my one and only
but it seems you have left me
broken and lonely.

The nights become darker
and days turn to black
I feel like my life
has been thrown off track.

Like a car crash
in the moon lights glow
when my eyes turn black
and thoughts move slow.

Was this for real or
was this a dream
waking up in a lake
from the sunlight's beam.

No one is here and
No one there
I just cough up some
blood and I'm gasping for air.

I pick up my wallet
and grab some cash
I get in my car
and I make a dash.

For new horizons that
are far in range
and meet new people that are Fairly strange.

Something like Heaven

A Place where love, loves hate
and where hate loves, love.

Re-creating the past
and creating false futures
of what could have been or what was.

Where everyone sits on front porches,
where there is no need to lock doors,
where freedom is free,
where there is no need for drugs
because everyone is high.

Where everyone gets what they want,
where everyone gets what they need,
where everyone gets love.

I Have an Idea

I recently had an idea for a radio station and a website. The radio station would play all local and indie music from across the state i live in and i would let people upload tracks to the radio stations website to be played over the air.

Do lyrics pollute a song?

The other day somebody asked me why I don't have lyrics to any of my songs. I told the person that I just have not thought of any. Sometimes I think Lyrics can pollute a song as much as they can make a song better . I think a song is more than just the lyrics.A song is more than just lyrics it is a feeling. It is the way the sounds flow through your ears, signals your mind, and sends chills down your spine.
I also think that everybody has there own listening experience. For me a listening experience is when I hear a song and try to think of something. I try to think of a scene in my life, or a scene that i wish would happen to me an try to play this mini motion picture or a music video of some sort in my mind. When I combine these two things it sends a chill down my spine.

If you are wondering I am listening to Explosions in the Sky and the album is called "The Earth is Not a Cold Dead Place".
I also highly recommended listening to this album, it will put you in a state of relaxation and deep thought.

When there is nothing else left

Some people believe that music can lead to suicide or even murder. The people who believe this are full of shit. I was reading some lyrics to a Suicide Silence song called "No pity for a coward". The song says things about killing your self, but if you can only understand the words that say, "pull the trigger bitch", and you kill yourself people would sure think that the song is saying to kill yourself, but it is not. The words that you understand are completely different from when you read all the lyrics. The song is about anyone who kill themselves is a coward and should be no pity on them.
People listen to music they like and also music they can relate to. If someone is feeling down they may listen to a certain genre of music that will make them feel better. Music is the one of the things you can turn to when nobody else is there to feel your sorrow, pain, anger, or happiness.
When I am feeling sad, angry, or happy I always know that I can turn on some music and crank the volume up to eleven and relate so I or anybody else does not turn to murder or suicide.

Life

Lets just start out by saying one of these days you are going to die. People only live for 70 to 90 years and then die. One thing i want to know is what does the word death mean. I think that it just means that you body no longer lives but your soul lives on whether it is a supernatural entity or what people remember you by. The number one goal in life is to be popular, I am not talking about being a celebrity but you want to be known or remembered by everyone that you knew and all that you love. After you die your soul only lives on because of all the people that remember you for what you have done with your entire life. Without remembrance there is way your soul will live on. So remember those who have died and why you remember them so they can live on and continue their journey.

Another crazy dream

I had a dream that started out at a best buy and when i left it turned into my room but my room was giant. Then i soon realized that there was a waterfall and a swimming hole in the dead center of my room and then a bunch of hippies came in and protested about my awesome room saying how environmentally unfriendly it was. I walked out of my room and all these hippies were out there protesting but i didn't even know it but i was in the Amazon rain Forrest.

The last song you listen to before you start school

The other day i realized that every-time i listen to music before school and turn off my car in mid song I have the song i just listened to stuck in my head all day.

I started to do a new thing were i listen to a bad ass song that is generally a heavy metal,death metal,fast grind-core song stop in mid song so I hear it in my head all day. Then sometimes I feel the need to scream and just beat the shit out of somebody,but i don,t. What I am getting at is what if everybody just sang there favorite death metal song all day in the hall. Kind of like high school musical but less Disney and scarier because some of the Disney cartoons are creepy.

You Only Need Two Things to Succeed in Life

today i realized how horrible my grades are in my math class. The problem was i didn't turn in any assignments and i failed a test.
I don't have any problems doing the homework i am just lazy . When i get an assignment that is only 10 problems i will do it but it seems that every assignment has to many problems. the only reason i say ten problems is because i don't have the ability to remember every step it takes to do one single problem so i have to keep looking in my notes. since i have to do that a mere ten problems could take anywhere from 10-25 minutes.
This brings me to my next thing, my test. i failed it thinking i was going to rape that test but in reality it raped me. The only reason i failed it was because i had a complete brain fart. It was more like a monkey sawed the top of my head pulled out my brains while another monkey pooped in his own hand and threw it in my head. I wasn't properly prepared would be an even better term.
Anyway the two things you need to succeed are motivation and the ability to retain information.

Crazy Dream

I had the craziest dream the other night while i was sleeping. it started out where me and my buddies were hanging out on a trip to some country were there is tribes. As soon as we got there, there was a tribe saying that there used to be a lake where we were standing but it was dried up ever since the curse. then some stupid random bitch girl stole a water buffalo head from the rival tribe and then it started to rain and she just so happen to lift the curse of no lake. After that we went diving in the lake that was almost forgotten and we just so happen to find a pirate ship and some how this ship was resurrected from the depths of the lake and we drove it around. we were sailing around in this old pirate ship and we came across a what i would call a pirate meet up, but the thing is we didn't know how to steer the boat and as soon as we were about to crash into the ship my mom woke me up and asked me what time i had to go to work at.

I was so pissed I wanted to finish the dream